Like a rollercoaster... up and down

So the past few months have been filled with great moments. I have learnt so much that I am just afraid that suddenly I will forget about all those incredible things I manage to do. I don't like talking about my personal life, but somehow I wanna share. Less about what has happened and more about how I feel about it. They say "Do what you love and you'll never have to work again". I don't know what to think about that quote... that's something that I have read on the internet and social media in general for a long time, and maybe that changed my perspective of what work actually means. I used to believe in that line intensively, thinking how cool it would be to do something that looks like a play, and how easy life would be. But back then I was young and naive... Now I am still young (even though I don't feel that way. I already lost so much time with so much crap; the world is huge and I am nothing compared to the universe - that kind of feel) and a bit too stressed to my taste. Maybe the world conspires against me, or maybe it doesn't and I am the one conspiring against myself, but I feel like people can need me once so they can make me feel useless when I don't reach their expectations. What I am trying to say with all this is that, I am finally doing something that I have always wanted to do, but somehow that is pulling all the good energies away from me. I am tired, my head aches, and still, if someone asks me to do it again, I would. I don't know why, maybe it's because I wanna love so badly my "job" that I will keep trying. Maybe it's my fault, maybe it's someone else's. (I like to think it is not me, but you never know... anyway, gotta keep my self esteem up). My thoughts lately are that doing what you love it makes things harder, in a good way, but still harder. You will have to work because you love what you do, so the need to do something not just good, but great, is higher. Everything gets an er and a more, because you want to make sure it is good enough, that you're good enough. The process is heavier on your back, but once you stand up straight, the denouement is way more beautiful.